Book Review: White Rage by Carol Anderson

How do I say this– I feel like such a white brat for buying a book to learn more about systemic racism, but I did. I mean, in times like this.. where all I can do is read/see information about the protests and deeply believing this is a pivotal point in Our History.. I HAD to. Would escaping to Netflix and watching some show about witches, or teenagers learning about life be easier? Oh yes. And I did that for about the first two months of this pandemic, and my liver and brain can’t take it anymore.

I just finished White Rage by Carol Anderson and my brain is blown, my heart hurts and in all my infinite Karen Powers– I feel POWERLESS.

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A Reading for…

So, maybe two weeks ago YouTube suggested a video to me from someone I don’t subscribe to.  It had to do with someone confessing their drug addiction and recovery.. this person seems pretty well known in the YouTube community, and I was RIVETED. Her story was so vulnerable and so honest. It was also so painful to hear what she went through and what she has ahead of her. I couldn’t stop thinking about her for that weekend.. then she’s frequently come into my thoughts during the week. I started following her on IG. In short, I feel a little obsessed with her. And I really really wish her the best. Continue reading “A Reading for…”

The Bike Ride That Changed Me

I came across this old photo of me– this was taken shortly after we had moved to Cairo (my second time living there, at this point). It was taken in front of the Catholic church we attended– it wasn’t far from where we lived– maybe a mile? I somehow had a bike at the time. I loved that bike. What a sense of freedom! I’d ride all over the little suburb we lived in– I’d visit my friends or ride to church while my family drove.

One day, I was riding my bike on the right side of the road, and a man on a bike, crossed from the other side, onto my side. I thought it was weird, but thought, maybe his destination is on this side? Continue reading “The Bike Ride That Changed Me”

Eve Thoughts

Christmas Eve. Already has been a slightly challenging visit with the family. Having to keep my options and reactions in check is ongoing. Our visit here really isn’t that long.

All around the town and in the house, the Christian version of Christmas is strong. And it only reminds me more and more of how far removed I am from that. I have taken such a different path over the past few years and I believe it scares my family that I don’t regularly attend church. I’m sure lots of prayers are said for me.

I drew a card for this post and got the Kings of Blooms, reversed. It is reminding me to check my emotions. This king can be loving, compassionate and caring, but can also be moody and self serving. Try to be generous and patient in these times. People won’t change over night, and that’s okay. Treasure the time together. Merry Christmas everyone. These are tough times, may you find peace.

King of Blooms from the Wooden Tarot.

Well, I Did It

I went to this pride event I guess you could say all ready to read for strangers. I made the sign, I studied like ALL day the day before. I was SCARED. I was so scared. I put the sign on my bag (thanks for the idea Yetta!) and then didn’t have the guts to turn the bag around so people could see the sign. And I sat, and sat and agonized over what to do and why was it so hard..! It felt like I was about to flash them!

Then I thought, “what feels more natural is if I go up to someone and just ask if they’d like a free reading…” and then after some people left, I went to my target. Morgan was my first “customer”. Continue reading “Well, I Did It”